I’ve talked about it a couple of times, but today’s session was a perfect example of why I usually don’t like to tell him my plans ahead of time. it’s not always the case, strategically scaring him a few days in advance can also be fun, but there are many ways how to do that while remaining ominously non specific 🤭 Anyway, today I’ve planned somethng comletely different. But the last few days was a little tiring and I’ve felt like I need a little slower playing myself. The great thing about being his keyholder is that I can order myself anything I am in the mood for right now. I often talk about how I love getting into his head, how I love the adoration, devotion, servitude … yes, that’s all very much true, it feeds my soul just as much as his. I just had to come to terms that I have this piece of myself that want to test him and twist him, and see what he’s willing to do for me. But sometimes I just want him to purely serve me. 🤭

I just wanted to use him. It’s incredibly liberating. You all know the feeling, that you are not sure what to tell your partner and if they’re going to like this or that, how to approach something. Ugh. I hate the feeling of walking on eggshells. So I don’t. 😄It may not sounds like the most erotic things in the universe, but knowing that I will not need to explain anything, I won’t need to defend myself, that I could be as direct and honest as I want to, is negating a big deal of stress that I’ve been used to come with any kind of relationship. And of course, I am sure there are subs that can be toxic or at least argumentative, but I think being Dom makes it at least easier to shut it down. 😈

Anyway, I know Luke would never pressure me into anything, even if I told him what the session would be about. But I am still glad I am not making promises about it, because I would doubt myself. I would question whether he isn’t too disappointed, or if he’s going to expect changes in the future as well. But this way, I am completely calm. My pet knows nothing what my plans were and is always happy to please me. 😊

Which brings me finally back to today. I had plans, but I was tired. I just wanted to order Luke to lie on the bed to work on my pussy. I locked him in the flat cage, because I love watching the bulge, as his penis is trying so hard to … well, get hard 😅 And the only place it can grow is inside his body. The question I sometimes get is how long do I keep him caged in the flat cage, as it’s not a very practical design. So today I have a good answer to that. Until I cum. Today, it was the only reason he was in it. Because I love it and find it hot, but once I was done, I didn’t care that much. He could go back to his “big cage”. See, his dick has a purpose and a role to play in order to give me an orgasm. It’s just a little different from what’s usual, but still very important to me. 😈