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Cake day: July 19th, 2023

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  • Because of the medication I’m on and basically having PTSD from relationships, I’m pretty numb to feeling anything. I feel love for my dear friends and their kids, and my dog and my aunt, but I’m just numb to all the shit my ex does, who I still have to live with, I have really no feelings towards my parents except disdain and vague pity, and anything bad or good that happens I’m super flat to, and even find the bad things sometimes a bit funny. The meds help in that I don’t have spiralling anxiety attacks anymore at all which is wonderful, but I’m pretty detached, and while it’s often super helpful, sometimes it worries me that when I finally can not live with my narcissistic ex anymore I won’t get depth of emotion back. I worry he’s destroyed it for good.